In April, 2010, when Andrew was 2 1/2, a tumor was discovered behind his eye. The tumor was removed, but it was found to be an aggressive cancer. He endured seven months of chemo and six weeks radiation. In December of 2010, the day after his last treatment, he was rushed to the ER with an almost fatal bacterial infection. He survived.

He is now seven-years-old!! I don't visit here much, because during the ordeal, this is where I dumped everything--my rage, my fear, my sadness, my ugly, my hope, my everything. But I want all of you who supported and prayed for us to hear his updates. You helped me survive, and I am deeply thankful. Every once in awhile, I will check in to let you know how he's doing. Please continue to pray that cancer will never return to his body. Thank you.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010


Sometimes when I see my blog title and picture, I feel sad.  This is not what I intended for my blog to be.  I did not intend for it to be a serious, depressing, sad blog about cancer.  Didn't.

I wanted it to be happy, and light, and clever (I tried), or at least slightly humorous.  But I guess things don't always go the way we want them to, do they?

So I want to thank all of you who continue to read this, for being sweet and kind and supportive.  Thanks for reading, and for commenting, and for making me feel a little less alone in this sadness. 

take care.


  1. okay but it is NOT depressing. it's real, and your faith and hope and trust is encouraging...and your honesty is refreshing, and we need these sorts of blogs. Because, at the end of the day, light shines bright in darkness. Your posts have stuck with me during my own rough patches. Thank YOU for blogging about it!

  2. Julie, it is NOT depressing for us, but we do care and want to know how Andrew (and you) are doing. What are you doing to take care of you?

  3. I agree. I'm sorry your family has to endure this, but it's not the depressing parts of it that shine through... it's the humanness; it's encouraging because of your openness and your ability to be real... that trials come to us, and don't spare any of us, no matter how cute and adorable we are. But that we can support and uplift each other, and that we all will get through it--together. And that life can still be good and fun, despite all the crap. We're rooting for you!

  4. You are never alone, Julie. For every person who takes the time to leave a comment, dozens more have probably "stopped by" for a visit or at least seen Andrew's button on someone's blog. Your courage in battle and even the times you're not feeling so strong give others hope and increased faith. Also, I'm so impressed that you can find the time to keep your blog as up to date as you do. It seems to be a positive outlet for you. Maybe it's not as you originally intended, but that's often the case in the crazy ride we're all on called life. -Eastlyn

  5. i understand where you're coming from, about things not turning out the way you expected, but you have nothing to apologize for! this blog tells the truth and right now your truth isn't the most laughable situation, but it certainly isn't depressing. and of course i will keep reading your blog. i care about you and your family and want to keep hearing your story. you are an excellent story-teller, no matter the subject content.

  6. The thing it, your blog is about your life and right now cancer and sadness and worry, are part of your life.
    But one day they won't be and i will be amazing to have a record of all you and your family have triumphed over.
    And although I don't know you in person I don't find your blog depressing at all. And in fact I even find it funny sometimes (the post about the multi coloured vomit was hilarious, but maybe I ma just weird).
    What you blog is, is hopeful and strong and inspiring.
    Thank you for sharing your thoughts and journey with us.

  7. Everyone else has already said it better than I can. Of course there are posts that are sad... but what shines through is your strength, your spirit, your honesty and the love of your family. You inspire us. You make us better mothers. And if we can provide some support along the way, then we're happy to do it!


  8. Ditto on what everyone else said. After I read one of your posts, I just wish there was something more I could do besides leave you a comment to let you know you're in my thoughts. Keep writing! We'll be here.

  9. You are so strong! I just want to send you my love, hugs, and prayers. XXOO

  10. Not depressing, just very very realistic. Keep on writing.

  11. Don't feel like you need to apologize for what you're going through!

    Thank you for being honest and transparent...


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