In April, 2010, when Andrew was 2 1/2, a tumor was discovered behind his eye. The tumor was removed, but it was found to be an aggressive cancer. He endured seven months of chemo and six weeks radiation. In December of 2010, the day after his last treatment, he was rushed to the ER with an almost fatal bacterial infection. He survived.

He is now seven-years-old!! I don't visit here much, because during the ordeal, this is where I dumped everything--my rage, my fear, my sadness, my ugly, my hope, my everything. But I want all of you who supported and prayed for us to hear his updates. You helped me survive, and I am deeply thankful. Every once in awhile, I will check in to let you know how he's doing. Please continue to pray that cancer will never return to his body. Thank you.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Celebrating Sammy C.

Today we celebrated my middle son's 5th birthday with 25 children at Pump it Up...a huge room full of  inflated jumpers.  The kids had a blast--and they almost forgot they had parents, so the parents got to least a little bit.

(Can I express my shock here and say that one father came with his two daughters.  He had not RSVPed.  He then left the party, leaving his daughters behind, and had to be called to come back because his youngest daughter was crying. He gave Sammy a present addressed to another child, and when Sammy opened it, it was a tea set.  The boys around him were snickering and Sammy was so embarrassed he started saying "no! no!" and refused to open it.  Then I was embarrassed.  I didn't want to make him open it, but didn't know what to do with the half-opened present? So I tried unsuccessfully to hide it under some of the strewn wrapping paper. John was mad and plotting revenge for his red-faced son.  I reminded him that it was the most sad for this man's poor daughters!!  Geez.)

My sweet Sam has loved the Disney movie "CARS" for three years now, and still can't get enough.  He got three sets of the same four CARS.  I asked him if he wanted to bring some of them back and get something else in exchange.  He looked at me like I was nuts and said, "No.  I love them."  Well okay then.  Easy enough.

I was thinking tonight of how we decided on his name.  My husband, who likes to think of himself as being tough, also has a sensitive side and likes to read and write poetry (I love him).  He likes to say that we named him "Sammy" in response to one of his favorite songs from Iron Maiden "Rime of the Ancient Mariner" (based on the poem by Samuel Taylor Coleridge).  But that was not what convinced me.  John started reading Coleridge and became a fan.  One night he showed me this poem, and our baby was named.  (Plus "Samuel" was MUCH better than some of the other options I was left with...:) )

Frost at Midnight

by Samuel Taylor Coleridge

(Third and fourth stanzas)
Dear Babe, that sleepest cradled by my side,
Whose gentle breathings, heard in this deep calm,
Fill up the interspersed vacancies
And momentary pauses of the thought!
My babe so beautiful! it thrills my heart
With tender gladness, thus to look at thee,
And think that thou shalt learn far other lore,
And in far other scenes! For I was reared
In the great city, pent mid cloisters dim,
And saw nought lovely but the sky and stars.
But thou, my babe! shalt wander like a breeze
By lakes and sandy shores, beneath the crags
Of ancient mountain, and beneath the clouds,
Which image in their bulk both lakes and shores
And mountain crags: so shalt thou see and hear
The lovely shapes and sounds intelligible
Of that eternal language, which thy God
Utters, who from eternity doth teach
Himself in all, and all things in himself.

Great universal Teacher! he shall mould
Thy spirit, and by giving make it ask.
Therefore all seasons shall be sweet to thee,
Whether the summer clothe the general earth
With greenness, or the redbreast sit and sing
Betwixt the tufts of snow on the bare branch
Of mossy apple-tree, while the nigh thatch
Smokes in the sun-thaw; whether the eave-drops fall
Heard only in the trances of the blast,
Or if the secret ministry of frost
Shall hang them up in silent icicles,
Quietly shining to the quiet Moon.

We love you Sammy C.!


  1. It's late, and I know I'm not getting much out of this poem right now (also, my annoying cat is whacking my head with her tail in affection, further distracting me), so I'm going to come back to this tomorrow. Happy birthday, Sammy!

  2. Your beautiful babe is 5! Happy Birthday Sammy! How cute that he wants to keep all the Cars sets. He'll have triplet McQueens, huh? If I were you, I'd save one of the sets as a collector's item for when he's older and let him play with the other two sets.

    I CAN'T believe that dad! How embarrassing for Sammy to open a tea set... Underwear would have been better. Well -- boys underwear would have been better. Panties -- worse.

    What will you do with the tea set now? Re-gift it to this girl on her birthday? (joking of course).???

  3. Happy Birthday Sammy!

    That's totally crazy about that parent....what a uncomfortable and anger inducing situation. I would have handed him the tea set back when he picked up the girls and said, "Um, wrong party???" Clueless.

    My boys still love Cars too and we all can't wait until the sequel comes out!

  4. Happy Birthday, Sammy!!

    I am still shaking my head over that dad?! I half wonder if he didn't have the wrong party...Did Sammy know the girls? That is just crazy and I can't even imagine doing that with my girls.

    Cars is one of my favorite Disney movies too! Thankfully one of my girls loves it too so that I can watch it with her. ;-)

  5. I don't know! So weird. My first thought was that it was a reject present that someone had given them? Or from a party they ended up not going to? Either way the dad wanted free babysitting and decided the price of admission was a gift...whatever that gift may be.

  6. Happy Birthday Sammy!!!

    Perhaps the parents thought "Sam" was a girl and bother checking with their child??

    We had a parent drop off child and (younger) sibling once before. Not cool.

    Glad the kids had fun!


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