Virtual Coffee- March

Hello! It has been a while since I have joined you for coffee, so I am excited. 

If we were truly meeting for coffee I would invite you to this little bakery/coffee shop down the road.

The weather is beautiful today, and the shop is nearby, so I might even suggest that we walk.

They just finished decorating, their pastries are delicious,

and I love it.

I got myself a decaf coffee and a cherry turnover.

My favorite.

Here, pick something for yourself and sit down.

I saved you a seat.

If we were actually sitting down together I might tell you that

every day

 I inhale breaths of freedom and relief.

It is so nice to be able to spend time at home

or at the grocery store, or at my mom's house

instead of the clinic or hospital.

So nice.

As I look at my son and his sweet pink cheeks and soft hair,

I can fill my lungs and exhale,

all the way.

I will admit that I find fear there,

at the bottom of each breath,

but I am trying to set it aside.

I am trying to ignore the nagging worry

so that I can enjoy the days that are before me.

I find that I am usually successful.

Oops, I forgot about my little tag-a-long.

Andrew likes donuts

and ladybug cookies.

and chocolate milk.

If you brought your children to play,

he would love them too.

I am starting to think that I need to brush up on my Star Wars timeline and trivia. 

My lack of knowledge is starting to hamper conversations with my children.

"Yoda does this and that, but Anakin should have done blah blah blah."

I just nod or shrug my shoulders.

I am beginning to feel like we speak a different language.

We were officially late to school this morning. 

For the first time.

Stark reality of life:

It is hard to drive your car without keys.

And I could not find mine.

Anywhere.

And it is the only key we have for my car

and John was already gone for the day.

I finally found them in my coat pocket.

A coat that I never wear, except for yesterday,

of course.

How are you?

I feel like I am slowly emerging from a tunnel,

 opening my eyes, and learning to look at the world again.

I am almost shocked to hear all the bad news, 

as if  I had blocked it out for awhile in order to cope. 

I just finished reading, She's Come Undone by Wally Lamb this week. 

 I love his descriptions and his ability to tell a sad story with humor. 

If you haven't read it, I would recommend it. 

Have you read any good books lately? 

I look forward to hearing from you and joining you for coffee!

And in case you didn't know the definition for chocolate, here it is:

I hope you enjoy your Tuesday.

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