In April, 2010, when Andrew was 2 1/2, a tumor was discovered behind his eye. The tumor was removed, but it was found to be an aggressive cancer. He endured seven months of chemo and six weeks radiation. In December of 2010, the day after his last treatment, he was rushed to the ER with an almost fatal bacterial infection. He survived.

He is now seven-years-old!! I don't visit here much, because during the ordeal, this is where I dumped everything--my rage, my fear, my sadness, my ugly, my hope, my everything. But I want all of you who supported and prayed for us to hear his updates. You helped me survive, and I am deeply thankful. Every once in awhile, I will check in to let you know how he's doing. Please continue to pray that cancer will never return to his body. Thank you.

Monday, May 3, 2010

How I am

 Someone asked how I am...

I am eating
(thank you all for the encouragement).

I am happy to be home.

I am relieved to see Andrew's head healing so quickly.

I am grateful.
My family is very supportive and helpful.
Friends have blessed us with kind words, meals, gifts, prayers,
and overwhelming attention.

I am still in disbelief and denial.

I am terrified.

I am pathetic at Wii's "Just Dance."
I played it today.
Andrew almost beat me and he was just standing there randomly moving the remote.

I am paranoid that my negative thoughts lead to negative occurences.
How else did one of my worst nightmares come true?
and other mind games...
I am constantly praying and begging and pleading.

I almost feel back to normal, and then
 I remember about Thursday...

I am going to stay away from and all of the other scary websites out there.

I am excited about the two new trees we just planted in the backyard.

I am hopeful.


  1. I just love that first picture! Totally frame-worthy. You forgot to add that you're a photographer too.

    You're hanging in there. Wish I could be there to give a hug, and listen in person. I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

  2. Thanks for the update. I've been thinking of you all often. {{{HUGS}}}

  3. Your family's names in the sand are beautiful. And while letters in sand are easily washed away, our positive thoughts are not. Please know that.

  4. It's so good to hear your update and it must feel good to be at home. Things are just easier to handle at home! Remain hopeful, keep eating, kiss the boys and know you are in my prayers.
    Love TJ

  5. I'm glad you posted this. I'd been thinking about you and wondering how you were doing. Andrew came to mind yesterday as we were taking off in the plane, so I prayed through the whole take off for Andrew. I don't know why I needed to pray then, but it felt right.

    Oh, and... I love Just Dance and hate Webmd!

  6. I've been thinking about you guys all week. Sending all my love and strength and healing thoughts.


  7. So many tears for you, but prayers to lift you up. Everyone has their own story, but I must encourage you, we were given a bleak diagnosis for my son several years ago. Today, he is whole. He is healed. Hold on to hope. HOLD ON. :)


  8. Hi Julie,

    I was so surprised to read about your son. I've visited you before. Your boys are beautiful.

    My son is a brain tumor suvivor. Sounds like their tumors are in the same location.

    If you have any questions I'm here for you.

    My son is doing great. He was dx at 16.

    Keep holding on!!


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